hello.

heyy. 
its been a long time huh? 
i'm already 20 years old. 
how fast time flies

there's many thing happen recently
some good, some bad
i guess that's life--

time do change--
people,
feeling,
places,
everything.

2 years and 9 months relationship finally end. 
I've tried the best in this relationship. 
but maybe i'm still not good enough for him.
now I'm sure of one thing--
cinta tak semestinya bersama. 

its hard.
to move on from something that i have hold in quite long time
but still, the only choice i have is move on. 
its hard to let go someone that mean the world to me
no matter how long i have wait, 
how many tears i have wasted
cry, 
begging, 
to that person. 
still, he will not coming back. 
once, I used to said, 
"you'll never love me like i love you"
that time, he deny it. 
but now, i was right. 

i'd be lying if i told you i was happy without you, 
but i would also be lying if i told you i need you to live.
i'd miss you a lot, 
wishing that all this thing is just a bad dream
but this is life, 
sometime happy, sometimes sad.

no need to sorry me, i do not ask for sympathy from anyone. 

i'm happy with my life now,
i have to,
i still can smile, laugh, be happy

:)

sooner or later, 
everything will be okay. 
may Allah ease everything.

amin.

love, NSN.