tujuh

hati ni, benda rumit kan?
sebab kadang-kadang aku sendiri tak faham apa yang aku nak,

kadang-kadang aku rasa, aku nak benda tu
tapi bila aku sedar, aku tak nak pon,
tapi bila benda tu hilang, macam orang gila aku cari

Aku sorang je ke yang rasa macam tu?

Aku pernah ada perfect life
Aku bahagia masa tu
sangat.

tapi bukan bahagia tu yang allah nak bagi aku,
Mungkin ada bahagia lain,

Dan aku perlu sedar yang,
"No matter how hard you trying, sometime, things aren't meant to be"

Selalu ingat benda tu. Selalu.

enam

Semua tu salah aku eh?
Terlalu memaksa
Terlalu demanding
Terlalu bergantung

Lelaki tak suka macam tu eh

Okay, lelaki tak suka
Ubah.

Tapi kita bahagia kan?
Or bahagia tu aku sorg je rasa?
Kau tak rasa apa2?

Jadi semua tu lakonan?

Hebat.
Sebab aku lansung tak perasan

Kawan aku kata jangan bermusuh
Maafkan la, redhakan semua

Aku tak pernah marah, tak pernah benci atau berniat nak bermusuh

Cuma--
Aku kecewaa,
Aku terluka

Dalam sangat
Terlalu dalam
Sakit sangatsangatsangat

Sebab kau--
Satu-satunya lelaki yang aku terlalu sayang
Lelaki yang aku hrap dapat selalu hidup bersama
Lelaki yang aku bangga punya anak macam kau

Sebab aku--
Da nampak rutin harian as your wife
Da nampak kau setiap kali aku bangun dari tidur
Da nampak semua ketawa indah sepanjang hidup aku dgn kau

Yang buat aku terkilan
Kau tak bg tau apa silap aku
Kau pergi waktu sayang tu 200% untuk kau

Masa kau merayu nak balik
Aku terima kau
Lupakan semua silap kau
Lepas tu kau bahagia
Indahnya senyum tu
Bahagianya saat tu
Tiba-tiba kau pergi tinggalkan aku
Sakit tu aku tanggung sendiri

Adil tak untuk aku?
Sedaya upaya bahagiakan kau
Tapi bila bahagia aku
Kau tak nak tolong
Sekalipun tak nak cuba faham

Sekarang kau ada teman baru,
Aku harap kau jumpa bahagia yang aku tak mampu bagi

Sekurang-kurangnya aku tau,
Doa aku yang satu tu Allah makbulkan

Cuma mungkin bahagia aku tu, lambat sikit

Pengganti kau mungkin lambat lagi
Sebab aku cuma bercinta dengan orang yg aku btol2 nak kawin
Dan selagi, setiap kali aku dengar 'cinta' aku masih ingat kau
Takkan ada yang lain

Takkan ada yang lain.

lima

"Kalau aku balik kat dia pon sebab aku kesian je"

Am i tht pathetic yang kau perlu kesiankan?!

I love you when u had N-O-T-H-I-N-G !
And you leave me when you have E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G
Nice work

Masa u had nothing , u beg me to stay
"Mati hati saya takde awak sayang"

Siapa yang pathetic yg patot dikesiankan?

Well goodluck finding your happiness with that beautiful young lady
But you know what
You'll never find one

Why?
Cari la serata dunia
If and only if you can get someone tht love you for you
Like what i always did

What am i thinking ? Pfft -.-"

empat

What a tough week!
Banyaknya kerjaaaaaaaaaa
Tests, quizes, assignment, presentation and of kos
MUET!

Can you wish me a luck?
Since you're my spirit,
It means a lot to me

Stress la haii
Dulu dengar suara asyraf cakap
"awak boleh buat punya laaa!"
"Mana awak tau?!"
"Saya kenal sayang saya"
*ketawa*
--hilang stress

I miss you
Soo much
Then i realise
Awak da ada gf

Sedaya upaya
Sembunyikan kecewa
Sembunyikan air mata
Sembunyikan rindu
Sembunyikan semua rasa tu

If and only if, i can close my heart for something that i dont want to feel
--kalaulah semudah itu

Someone once said
"Can u give me your heart? I swear i'll take a good care of it"
"How can i give you my heart? I've none. Its broken"

Takkan ada yang lain, selagi
When i think about love, i still think about you
And cry

Kalau awak tak bahagia dengan that beautiful young lady
Please do come back
For you i'd wait

tiga

I had a really really worst nightmare

Aku kelua dgn cikeding
Then dia mara aku
Dia tinggalkan aku tepi jalan
Without any mercy
Muka dia bengis sangat
Bukan asyraf yang aku kenal

I guess Allah nak tunjuk yang--
He's not gonna come back?

Hmm
I wish he do come back

But he wouldn't not
Hmm

dua

Dear asyraf, 

I guess mimpikan awak every night tu da jadi routine

The only way Allah makbulkan doa saya

--to see you happy

Then He let me meet you in my dream and you smile

 Awak happy kan? Then i'm happy too for you

Alhamdulillah Allah mudahkan semua ni untuk awak

Mungkin susah sikit untuk saya 

Sebabnyaa--

Semua orang pun tahu -- i love you more then you love me

I miss you bby

Every single night

Every single day

Penat kira hari

When would you come back? 

You won't isnt it? 

You have found your happiness

With that beautiful young lady

Saya tulis semua banda ni, i dont know if u read

But nahhhh

Tak mungkin la awak baca kan? 

Banyak lagi benda boleh buat dari buang masa baca benda alah ni

Nak kena layan that beautiful young lady tu lagi 

Saya tak rasa awak ingat pon the existing of this blog

Kadang2 rasa nak delete blog ni

Tapi tak sanggup--

Sebab semua kenangan daripada kita first met ada dalam ni

Bia la kan? 

Itu kenangan terindah untuk saya

Well, you are the best thing ever happen to me

Always, be good

satu

Dear MAA,

Another day 

Without your smile 

Another day just passes by 

But now I know 

How much it means 

For you to stay 

Right here with me 

The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger 

But it hurt so bad I can't take it any longer 

I wanna grow old with you 

I wanna die lying in your arms 

I wanna grow old with you 

I wanna be looking in your eyes 

I wanna be there for you 

Sharing everything you do 

I wanna grow old with you 

A thousand miles between us now 

It causes me to wonder how 

Our love tonight remains so strong 

It makes our risk right all along 

The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger 

But it hurt so bad I can't take it any longer 

I wanna grow old with you 

I wanna die lying in your arms 

I wanna grow old with you 

I wanna be looking in your eyes 

I wanna be there for you 

Sharing everything you do 

I wanna grow old with you 

Things can come and go I know but 

Baby I believe 

Something's burning strong between us 

Makes it clear to me 

I wanna grow old with you 

I wanna die lying in your arms 

I wanna grow old with you 

I wanna be looking in your eyes 

I wanna be there for you 

Sharing everything you do 

I wanna grow old with you

I really wanna grow old with you

I miss you bby

Ur smile

Ur laugh

Ur smell

The way u 'bebel2' masa i make something stupid. Hahaha

The way u said 'i love you' 

Hmm

I miss you bby 

Please do come back

Life become so much harder w/o you by my side

Hmm, 

But u've found your happiness.

And you'll never come back isnt it? 

Hmm 

Be good then bby, 

I wish that new girl will love you for your weakness 

And accept all your flaws the way i did 

Stay handsome dear. I love you. And i will always will

Please do always remember me

My smile

My laugh

The way i say 'i love you'

My attitude

Because that was the real me that only you know 

I miss you bby. And i will always will.